A reason to smile…

It is important for me that I write today. I love you. I loved you the day I saw you for the first time and our eyes met. I loved your checked shirt and the superman tee. I loved that astonished expression and the silly spiked hair. I loved every bit of you, the day I saw you. I found love as I lost myself. But love is a complete feeling only when it’s reciprocated. You, it seems like, don’t love me.  You don’t even know me in the first place. You don’t know that I love you. You don’t know that I’d take a bullet for you. ‘Cause I’ll never say and you’ll never guess. Call me old school, but I am shy. And scared too. I want you to walk to me, shake me, yell at me and kiss me as you wipe away my tears. I want you to tell me that you love me as much as I love you. I want you to hold me tight and never let go. I want you to look straight in my eyes and confess that when our eyes met, you fe lt that same connection. You felt that magnetic pull. I want you to call me silly, and kiss my tears as I cry in joy. I want you to hold my hand as I pick my bag that had fallen when you swung me around. I want you to kiss my forehead as I bury my face in your superman tee. I want you to just be there for me.

But that ain’t happening, not your fault, you don’t know. And you never will. ‘Cause I won’t say, and you won’t guess. But that doesn’t stop me from loving you.

Love is when you want the other person to be happy even if you are not a part of their happiness. So they say. And if this is love, then I love you the most. Because your happiness is all that I pray for.  Even if it breaks my heart. Even if I have to cry. Your happiness matters more to me because if you are happy only then, I’ll smile. And so, I pray everyday that you find a reason to smile…

National Institute of Fashion Technology, Mumbai