…and one day she leaves and she is gone forever ..!! Just like that !! ..as if it was meant to be !! 
the most predictable girl left in the most unpredictable way .. She simply decides and leaves !. As if nothin’ mattered to her ..after so much we been through ! How could one so supportive so caring could possibly do that ? Leavin’ behind a whole lifetime for me to regret . . . and now i cant even sleep at nights .. This loneliness this absence of her presence , the dreams of bein’ together…i am just walkin’ all over those shattered pieces ! Tryin’ to feel the pain i realized its somethin’ she left for me for my whole life .. And it didnt mattered anymore how many achievements i made how many goals i achieved i am still not succesful in my own eyes ! In this hearti still lost in your love ! Life is void now .. Emptiness surrounds in this concrete crowd … Hollowness i find in myself .. Myself in No-Mans- Land .. Searchin’ a way out but
Neither the phone nor the train, neither facebook nor the bus .. Not even any flight .. I cant reach out to you or hold your hands once again because i dont anymore know the TrueYou .. If i Did you would not have left like this .. So i celebrate !! Let it be ! If we were really not meant to be together so be it ! So i Die !! Every Day every evenin’ every mornin’ every night i die myself i kill myself i smoke i drink i f**k ii high on grass i kill every f##kin’ memory of yours .. With respect i suffer ..then there in my bed at 3AM i sit still and wonder”WHY ??”
3:30 am
I get up, light a smoke, take a deep puff .. Exhale a long trail of regret. *sighs* and in the darkness i find that somewhere there’s still a part of you clingin’ on to me .. Or for the worse a part of me still clings on to you… Deep inside me we still belong to each other…
That’s when i promise i’ll tear apart this soul i will burn this soul for vengeance ! until then as long as i suffocate in your memories i will pray for your well being and will die for you always forever…
Bhoirab Ashim
'Campus Writing' 